Rebellion
I went, very reluctantly, to a Catch the Vision meeting last week. I admit, not terribly excited about the vision, which to me sounds like a building campaign even if they claim it is not. We could buy several houses on Walnut for that. Sigh. I wasn't excited to be there. But I went because someone, somewhere along the way labeled me a "leader" and they really wanted all the leaders to attend one of these puppies.
I didn't want to be there. I didn't want to put on a nametag. I didn't want to sing. I didn't want to hear about the building plans. And it showed. Heck, I sort of cursed in front of Wayne and didn't really give a hoot. I went because I felt I had to. Marisol said it was my rebellious nature when I refused to put on a nametag. (I. Hate. Nametags. Always have.) Granted, she did say that it took one to know one. But...
I was thinking about my rebellious nature today. This whole fasting thing too, getting on my nerves, and I'm not fasting yet. Don't know if I will even. I wonder if it's because I'm surrounded by people working on the giving campaign that I feel smothered by it. People working on the publications and the devotional and the videos. Everyone asking "What are you going to fast from? Have you been to a Vision meeting? How did you decide how much to give?"
Enough already.
I'm thinking that maybe I'll fast from church during the next 40 days.
I didn't want to be there. I didn't want to put on a nametag. I didn't want to sing. I didn't want to hear about the building plans. And it showed. Heck, I sort of cursed in front of Wayne and didn't really give a hoot. I went because I felt I had to. Marisol said it was my rebellious nature when I refused to put on a nametag. (I. Hate. Nametags. Always have.) Granted, she did say that it took one to know one. But...
I was thinking about my rebellious nature today. This whole fasting thing too, getting on my nerves, and I'm not fasting yet. Don't know if I will even. I wonder if it's because I'm surrounded by people working on the giving campaign that I feel smothered by it. People working on the publications and the devotional and the videos. Everyone asking "What are you going to fast from? Have you been to a Vision meeting? How did you decide how much to give?"
Enough already.
I'm thinking that maybe I'll fast from church during the next 40 days.